WE HAVE MOVED.

http://aaaandthemachine.tumblr.com/

Stay.

Well the results turned out good. All smiles I guess.

The best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature.

I know you will come back to me again, but next time I wont be the same.

Sigh. tsk.tsk.tsk.

The S$7 million pumped into the Football Association of Singapore is barely enough compared to Japan and Korea’s of $40+million. If you know a little something about football like I do, you would say that Singapore’s campaign in this year’s AFF Suzuki Cup was a total disaster. Raddy Avramovic’s tactics of the past of quick play and precise passing were not even seen on the pitch every game. From the disappointing draw with the Philippines to the boring lucky win over Myanmar.

You could only imagine my great frustration watching them play with not even half of the Premier League tempo and central midfielders of young and inexperienced Shahdan Sulaiman & Persela Lamongan’s  Fahrudin Mustafic nowhere to be seen. Mustafic whom has been a commander of Singapore’s midfield for the past few years was not playing as well as he was capable of . Blind passes given away freely every game they played and not to mention, one could almost say foolish long balls all easily waited by opposition defenders to be headed away.

The biggest joke was how the Singapore media made Agu Casmir look so good after scoring the winning goal in the 2-1 win against Myanmar. The media barely blasted the team for the boring football they played as if they did not want to even be on the pitch.

Final words from me are that this should be a wake up call, well wake up calls were everywhere for the past few years. This is the time for the football association to buck up its efforts in improving the S League and player development and also for the government who so badly wants sporting achievements around the world and I mean real sports, not ping-pong or bowling or sailing, please, its time for us to show the world that Singapore can win real sports.

The leaders talk about how our athletes are not achieving enough, well YOU can start with improving the pay of athletes and give them financial security when they retire for giving their full commitment to the sport. With their peers earning more than them after attaining a degree, its obvious anyone would opt for the latter.

Do Me A Favour

She walked away while her shoes were untied, and the eyes were all red. You could see that we’d cried. And I watched and I waited till she was inside.

Forcing a smile and waving goodbye.

 

 

 

 

I love these lyrics from the Arctic Monkeys. So poetic, you can imagine yourself there.

 

Resonate.

I am seventeen

Broken

Overweight

Have lost my confidence which I built my character on

and my self esteem.

 

 

gosh, I should stop feeling sorry for myself and get myself back.

Someone please tell me, it will get better.

Amelia

And Amelia, tell them how sorry I am.

And Amelia, this wasnt part of the plan.

This is the part that nobody mentions, I hope that you know all my intentions were true.

Why dont you listen, we’re different thats all,

There’s only so much I can do

all that I wanted was you.

‘Amelia’ – Erik Hassle

End Of This Chapter II

Press play.

 

 

Now picture this, my Ipod in hand, listening to this amazing track from Arcade Fire. And I took my slowest stroll ever to school. Passing under void decks.

And the air was as sweet as honey. I couldnt stop smiling to myself. This is what freedom smells like. This is how the nightmare ends. Crossed the road to school but what was to be my official last day to school.

But deep inside. Fear overcomes me. Fear to know what outcome holds for me. This fear’s got a hold on me.

But I will always be hoping for the best.

Ameen.

The End Of This Chapter

And today I shall wear these navy blue pleats for the last time

And today I shall button up this white shirt for the last time.

Oh time, great healer.

1530 hrs Singapore time

Deutsche Film Festival

11 months.

11 months was all it took.

11 months to change my views.

11 months to take my breath away.

 

The German Film festival kicked off yesterday. Me and Andrew were supposed to catch the White Ribbon which had won the Cannes Palme d’Or(highest prize awarded to competing films) back in 2009. And so we totally forgot that it was the opening night and when we reached there, the tickets were totally sold out.  Around us were German expats or the ang mohs if you’d like to call them attending the film. Well in the end , we bought tickets to 4 other films in the course of the next 2 weeks or so. This is gonna be our yearly thing and the films are great. All of you should catch one or 2 during the different film festivals that cathay has to offer.

And this particular film titled Shahada or Faith is one im definitely looking forward too. We were lucky to get tickets.

Smoking Kills

It has been sometime since Ive written here. I wonder if anyone reads this at all. Well if you do, I thank you. I probably know you anyway and if i dont, well then hello there. The major papers are almost over. Well im just that this chapter in my life will come to a close finally. Ive met many great people along the way. People who a years ago I have never met no noticed eventhough we might bump in school all the time or stand beside each other at some nearby traffic light.

This chapter of my life has been one like a box full of surprises as you never know that the people you meet could very well be a blessing a disguise. And it is also with this year that I finally found faith at the phrase time heals all pain. Well not really, it heals the old ones and brings about new ones. Mistakes are realised and learnt from and then new ones are made.

All ideas I had of the end is nothing compared to what I am feeling now. Absolute nothingness as nothing could bring back what I was before. The uncertainly of future will slowly kill me inside. And to lose some of the charisma you once had is a great loss. But once in awhile someone comes by and change you. Change the way you think, not necessarily positive, but change comes and change can be so attractive you think about it day and night. Thinking about how you could get to change.

And to change is to be someone new and sometimes you cant do so. And that is what’s stopping me.