Smoking Kills

It has been sometime since Ive written here. I wonder if anyone reads this at all. Well if you do, I thank you. I probably know you anyway and if i dont, well then hello there. The major papers are almost over. Well im just that this chapter in my life will come to a close finally. Ive met many great people along the way. People who a years ago I have never met no noticed eventhough we might bump in school all the time or stand beside each other at some nearby traffic light.

This chapter of my life has been one like a box full of surprises as you never know that the people you meet could very well be a blessing a disguise. And it is also with this year that I finally found faith at the phrase time heals all pain. Well not really, it heals the old ones and brings about new ones. Mistakes are realised and learnt from and then new ones are made.

All ideas I had of the end is nothing compared to what I am feeling now. Absolute nothingness as nothing could bring back what I was before. The uncertainly of future will slowly kill me inside. And to lose some of the charisma you once had is a great loss. But once in awhile someone comes by and change you. Change the way you think, not necessarily positive, but change comes and change can be so attractive you think about it day and night. Thinking about how you could get to change.

And to change is to be someone new and sometimes you cant do so. And that is what’s stopping me.

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